昔日

昔日的相爱，换来今日的泪水。
昔日的友谊，换来今日的破碎。
昔日的笑容，换来今日的悲伤。
昔日的色彩，换来今日的黑暗。
昔日的关心，换来今日的城墙。
昔日的快乐，换来今日的空虚。
昔日的爱意，换来今日的恨怒。
昔日的酸甜，换来今日的苦辣。
昔日的春夏，换来今日的秋冬。
昔日的幸福，换来今日的分离。
昔日的童年，换来今日的冷酷。
昔日的月光，不再与今日相比。

回忆换来甜蜜和痛苦，一点一滴在我脑海徘徊。日子一天一天的过去，我还站在昔日的原点。
种种因素包围着那脆弱的种子与心灵，希望末日的到来，希望到天涯海角避开这黑暗的遮盖。
泪水就像大海无边无缘，挥长剑，斩情根。本是一对情深意重鸳鸯情，如今孤单着影何处游。

"The final challenge of my life"

what is final challenge of my life:examination
:start this saturday was my first day serve my lord
:sports activity(climb,jogging and etc)
:new job after graduate
:love problem(which in the past)
:orphanage house
:single forever(no any intercoastal relationship)
:protect and love my family(especially my mother)
:social problem
:become a psychologist
:more spiritual grow and mature in the kingdom of god
:to become a knowledgeable person
:written and publish my own story book and philosophy
:every step i taking must be concern
:become a part of NGO to help people
:can be more adaptable,independent,determination
:musician was my dream,sydney opera house
:spread the love of god to people around me
:start a new life when face a big temptation
:make my life more colourful and meaningful
:don't give up,because nothing is impossible.all have solution


....................LOVE YOU..................

Have many question on me,is it i have been travel this world before i get born.why have many picture like a thunder flash across my mind during a second per hour go through my life.the place make me feel have a intimate relationship which storage in my memory.Recently all the problem like to tested my patient and the level of my emotional control.this like a big temptation i had faces and seen in past decade.but this time like lose of control,my mouth was say out many rude and uncourtesy word when or even at any places to the people i met.the genes of violence was contain a part of my body to devastate my "FUTURE".continue....................

Have something wanted voice out from me,but can't and difficult.mute was not belong to me,heart don't know how to interpret the problem,XXXXXXXXXXXXxxxxxxxxxxxxx..........

My Philosophy

On this world every creatures was wonderful,but they always have their unsolveable problem which always faced by them.for my own philosophy and whispered,"on this world nothing problem is can't be solve,each question and problem have their own solution,it depend on you and ourself wanted the problem become a nothing".it was in your hand and my hand.

No.1

From fairest creatures we desire increase,

That thereby beauty's rose might die,

but as the riper should by time decrease

His tender heir might bear his memory:

But thou.contracted to thine own bright eyes,

Feed'st thy light's flame with self-substantial fuel,

Making a famine where abundance lies,

Thyself thy foe,to thy sweet self too cruel.

Thou that art now the world's fresh ornament

and only herald to gaudy spring,

within thine own bud buriest thy content,

And ,tender churl,mak'st waste in niggarding.

pity the world,or else this glutton be,
to eat the world's due,by the grave and thee.

Myself,colourful life in our hand

i love my life,i can feel that all my life gonna be changed started by now to colourful and fruitful.i love to social with people around me.nothing is impossible in our life.it all just depend on ourself whether want the life became more different or not,such as enjoyable,fun,everything is good."Fate was in our hand,fate also in our god hand"you wanna the life different with other people,just dare out you first step and everything become possible and change.

hallelujah!!!!

just wanna say out hallelujah!!!!!!!

14 blades and Learn

Two days ago,i have been went out to times square watched the 14 blades with my friend(fatty boy,tong huat and another don't know who is it).this movie just applied that what is the definition as a blader,and what is the position on this blades.is quite lousy movie.not much interested and somemore boring.
Unfortunately,during the day some qurrel happened besides us.but it just fine and be settle with harmonies.we almost goes too many places around the KL at a day.i going felt down because too tired,but is fun.after go back to my house i went to another places which been invited by housemate.i so sad saw this kind of situation,i predict it not be happen again in my life,but unfortunate it again happen in front of my eyes.the whole process i saw it very clearly and feel disappointed with the person.i don't know how to face this kind of people,in between he also my closes friend.difficult to made me to erase this bad experiences,whatever,is it on this world no one i can be trusted.is it difficultly to found someone can be trusted.in my conclusion,overall my experiences in my life,the person which i can trust and believe was god and myself.no one can control our life,in order to make us more powerful and strength,we need always upgrade ourself,if not we will out of date and can't follow the trend of life with left behind other people.continue.........

Environment changed

Continue from the last post,last three day i never attended any service at the church at all.Eventhough i have promises one person which is my cg leader,i'm sorry,i break the promise.i really tiring after clean all the thing inside my new room,the area of the room is large and besides that fully of cooled air surround it.During sunday evening,i enter the UKM with my friend to searching internet.Woah,the UKM is extremely large,but the environmental at there can be said still quite ok.Compare the UKM to the tarc college,it multiple 4 times above of tarc college.i not only tiring,moreover yesterday infected by the disease and made my body more deteriotion.the purposes i goes to UKM is search information about the new age verse religions and etc.now i stuck on one question,that is i don't know whether this decision making right or wrong.because it maybe become one of my burden.but the advantages is more than the disadvantages.is it i need still to think about it or i give up and left it and work as a student to continue achieved the target which i set on this year.who can tell me???

Environment changed

This few day busy to packing all my equipment,stationery and etc from my Taman bunga raya rented house.Now was already entered my new and comfortable house.whereas there was incovenient to my college.cause it quick far away.But nevermind lah.continue.......cause busy hehehe

我的心情真的好舒服，那天一个风和日丽的早上，在我回家时虽然发生一点意外。但如经的心情冲满着神的喜乐和平安。虽然那一天真的很不甘愿。因为我之前计划的和我有想过的事情都没有在神里面成就。但我不回这么容易的倒下的。我家人真的忘记了我的生乐。在我很小的时候，我记得有一次的生乐我拥有一个很大的蛋糕。从那一天起到我中学才有第二次的蛋糕，但那时候以经不像我第一次的生乐了。我面对家庭的破碎，我不在快乐，有时候真的很羡慕那些家庭美满的人。为何它们不会真惜它们拥有的。反而他们去破坏他。第三次的生乐真的有一点惊压，那是去年在教会庆祝，但那天不是我的生乐，但我一路以来都不喜欢跟其他人同用一样的东西。但真的很感谢他们为我和那两个同一个月的人庆祝生乐。今年21岁的生乐既然一个人度过，这一天竟然在我家有另外一个人同一天生乐。但他就有一班朋友为他庆祝。我有去和他庆祝因为他邀请我，那天是BBQparty。但生乐蛋糕在他和所有人的面前时，那个时刻真的很心酸。算了，一切到此为此。以后我都不回再庆祝任何我的生乐。今年真的对我有很大的意义。破碎的梦想，不会回到原本的梦想。就好像镜子破碎了无法变回原来的模样。

My 21 year old birthday

The birthday of me was 5/01/89,this year is my 21 year old birthday,i very happy it is because become adult and somemore need be more mature surrounding this world.what i expect will happen on my birthday,that was not happening,what i pray to the lord with confident,the dream just like broken or destroy by the darkness,this year got one person same birth with me,but why got people celebrate with her.why me need alone,i not alone just have god accompany me go through this birthday.no cake,no present.Somemore on the early morning,around 10 a.m got thief wanted break the door and steal our property.but this all is power of god.today my heart not very comfortable on the morning,besides that i haven taken my breakfast.i saw a person,i fear,but my mind is stable,moreover straight away called someone or neighbours help me.after that i going to report the police,but he said waste his time.he say why at the time don't caught him directly and let them more work to do.how i know
??i so fear,that time only need someone help me,but this time make me realize i need be so strong.and intelligent to handle this problem,if have next time.thank god help me.but my birthday dream no achieved,i hated my birthday.forever i don't want have any birthday.my family also forget my birthday.really dissapointed.examination is around the corner.A level final exam need complete to get the certificate.whatever happen around me i still be strong to continue going on our life.god you are the best.human are the bad.