hahahaha,now i already change to new cg group,but i don't know who is my member on this group,i didn't go to the chuch yesterday,and today i also same because fever,is it this is the way i leave the church,the people on the church much of them is talented,smart and potential,me just like a tiny of seed and no serve to my lord,i really useless,why i still can't same as other people live in jesus life.destroy myself to dissappear on this world,my body split up,really crazy at this period,i lose everything,i lost,i miserable........