Environment changed

Continue from the last post,last three day i never attended any service at the church at all.Eventhough i have promises one person which is my cg leader,i'm sorry,i break the promise.i really tiring after clean all the thing inside my new room,the area of the room is large and besides that fully of cooled air surround it.During sunday evening,i enter the UKM with my friend to searching internet.Woah,the UKM is extremely large,but the environmental at there can be said still quite ok.Compare the UKM to the tarc college,it multiple 4 times above of tarc college.i not only tiring,moreover yesterday infected by the disease and made my body more deteriotion.the purposes i goes to UKM is search information about the new age verse religions and etc.now i stuck on one question,that is i don't know whether this decision making right or wrong.because it maybe become one of my burden.but the advantages is more than the disadvantages.is it i need still to think about it or i give up and left it and work as a student to continue achieved the target which i set on this year.who can tell me???

Environment changed

This few day busy to packing all my equipment,stationery and etc from my Taman bunga raya rented house.Now was already entered my new and comfortable house.whereas there was incovenient to my college.cause it quick far away.But nevermind lah.continue.......cause busy hehehe

我的心情真的好舒服，那天一个风和日丽的早上，在我回家时虽然发生一点意外。但如经的心情冲满着神的喜乐和平安。虽然那一天真的很不甘愿。因为我之前计划的和我有想过的事情都没有在神里面成就。但我不回这么容易的倒下的。我家人真的忘记了我的生乐。在我很小的时候，我记得有一次的生乐我拥有一个很大的蛋糕。从那一天起到我中学才有第二次的蛋糕，但那时候以经不像我第一次的生乐了。我面对家庭的破碎，我不在快乐，有时候真的很羡慕那些家庭美满的人。为何它们不会真惜它们拥有的。反而他们去破坏他。第三次的生乐真的有一点惊压，那是去年在教会庆祝，但那天不是我的生乐，但我一路以来都不喜欢跟其他人同用一样的东西。但真的很感谢他们为我和那两个同一个月的人庆祝生乐。今年21岁的生乐既然一个人度过，这一天竟然在我家有另外一个人同一天生乐。但他就有一班朋友为他庆祝。我有去和他庆祝因为他邀请我，那天是BBQparty。但生乐蛋糕在他和所有人的面前时，那个时刻真的很心酸。算了，一切到此为此。以后我都不回再庆祝任何我的生乐。今年真的对我有很大的意义。破碎的梦想，不会回到原本的梦想。就好像镜子破碎了无法变回原来的模样。

My 21 year old birthday

The birthday of me was 5/01/89,this year is my 21 year old birthday,i very happy it is because become adult and somemore need be more mature surrounding this world.what i expect will happen on my birthday,that was not happening,what i pray to the lord with confident,the dream just like broken or destroy by the darkness,this year got one person same birth with me,but why got people celebrate with her.why me need alone,i not alone just have god accompany me go through this birthday.no cake,no present.Somemore on the early morning,around 10 a.m got thief wanted break the door and steal our property.but this all is power of god.today my heart not very comfortable on the morning,besides that i haven taken my breakfast.i saw a person,i fear,but my mind is stable,moreover straight away called someone or neighbours help me.after that i going to report the police,but he said waste his time.he say why at the time don't caught him directly and let them more work to do.how i know
??i so fear,that time only need someone help me,but this time make me realize i need be so strong.and intelligent to handle this problem,if have next time.thank god help me.but my birthday dream no achieved,i hated my birthday.forever i don't want have any birthday.my family also forget my birthday.really dissapointed.examination is around the corner.A level final exam need complete to get the certificate.whatever happen around me i still be strong to continue going on our life.god you are the best.human are the bad.

i'm glad saw you changed a lot in the kingdom of god,god is miracle,the thing human can't do but the god can done it,cause he was the one created this wonderful world.god is my guide light and salt.you heard my pray.he not alone and i also not alone.

Poem to my lover

today i wrote this poem is contain my love upon you,long time didn't made a poem.this is my second time.


尔对你情深意意，
不管认何阻扰与艰难，
尔对你始终情深一遍。

月儿照亮无处角，
可惜不是永与亮，
水中月，似情意，
千刀乱斩意难断，
不管天涯或海角，
情意仍在你我心。

to:我爱的人，

一首诗， 我心意，
明我诗者亦是你，
长遍大伦式如海，
诗代尔达心理话，
心灵相通皆欢喜。

Encounter god at PeaceHeaven(G.H)

26th of november 2009-the begun of the trip,the bus start around 12.30p.m to 1.00p.m,but luckily i follow with van of the church.a few person which i know also on the van such as kien been,iain,mun suet,wei en,yen ee,joanne mah and other.After few hour,we finally arrived that place which surround with cold fresh air,it really great.the places really nice,but the fod at there still ok lol,but the purpose of us is to encounter god not the food.

During the the first night encounter god,the god really deeply touch my heart,what the god say to me from the pastor is:

Luke 10:38-42---the verses between this chapter which is talking about martha and mary.the martha distracted by all the preparations,but the mary just outside with the god.after that martha tell jesus, let her sister mary come in to help.but jesus said:mary chosen what is better,it will not be taken away from her.On this chapter the god say,don't work without don't know what the god want us to do.we must work what the god want,we must stay inside the god,then the god will also stay inside us(john 15:4-5).
Moreover,that night really impact my heart,why god know everyone needs,it really beautiful and wonderful.

27th of november 2009,is second day of encounter god,we just woke up and prepared for consume the breakfast at canteen,which made by the worker on canteen,thank you so much of your all treated.after the breakfast we have one hour the devotion between each group,the devotion chapter is (john 15:1-8),during the devotion,i received many word from god,the sound of god really soften and peace.without the god what we have done just has limited to us,but when we have god and follow his instructions,we can do more than we want,he was our future,our light to guide us which is right for us.thank you lord you so love your people on each areas,country and etc.

W0w,it really nice after devotion,during that time,i desired the encounter two were goes through by the precious time.because i want more encounter god.just only started the conferrence,another word of god impact me,during second day really more encounter god than first day.

ISAIAH 60:1-3
ISALAH 60:19-22

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