I'm Free

Through you the blind will see
Through you the mute will sing
Through you the dead will rise

Through you my hearts will praise
Through you the darkness flees
Through you my heart screams

I AM FREE

I am free to run
I am free to dance
I am free to live for you

I'm free,I'm free,I'm free




hello everybody,i just came back from my hometown,happy chinese new year all of you......

Indignation and rancor

my heart was wrath and painful,i can't forgive the people do that to me,i really uncontrolled myself already,i can't sleep in comfortable situation,because anger in my mind about lost all the important thing,in the beginning,my heart was nothing happening,but after the rob happened my heart want to revenge,i want they all have extra pain,just like they hurt me and make my mentality to be frightened.all the malay are useless,have a job don't want to work,just only rob people thing and besides that,the poliemen and policewomen also like that,all of them are lazy,just only eat and sat on the office,behaviour and no manner.they must know when a fete day coming,they must be much of rob happened and the police must taken the action to protect the people around the country,they must to patrol each area of the places.malaysian defences really poor and worse..it make me felt uncomfortable and need to scared everyday.

unlucky days

yesterday 10p.m was rob by the robber on taman bunga raya with my friend,all the important thing was rob,in beside that,my hand also injury by hurt from the robber,i told him,you can take all the thing,but give back the sim card to me,but he never do that,he using the parang hurting my hand,besides that,all my book and gone and my tarc college ID card was also rob,now i didn't have any sen in mine,i asking friend help me,he have many excuse,why,if them have problem i help them a lot,but i have problem,the people keep away from me,actually i already forgive people,now happen like this kind incident,i was not forgve them,my heart was broken again.................painful,i were give benjamin extra revenge....

Weakeness

Day by day,my body become more weakeness.Besides that,my healthy situation also got problem,my body were pop up different kind of the dot or other thing i never been before.yesterday i fall in sick.Sometimes i was thinking it is the end of my life or the time i was faced with my beloved god.i keeped to made me became more strong,but actually was lose and can't stand more longer the feeling.yesterday i whole day just only slept...haizz

Dream......

Just now i having a nice dream,i saw a pastor and any group member in my dream,i was very happy and besides that,we going to one food stored prepared to taken a dinner,in the dream,in this dream,me and other member joking,played the game whereas the pastor are together with us, Suddenly,the pastor said;the word of god to us,he said,if somebody made a mistaken or any sin in their life must put the effort to take it away with the love from the god,he also said,who body have the oath in their body,it can disappeared with the power of god,but must step by step,because the demon was trying destroyed us,but with the god power we can do anything....i very happy because if i continue prayed and studies the word of god,the oath in my body was gone,jesus i love you much than the human in the world,jesus you are the best,thank you jesus,glory glory my god,i worship you,in addition,you gave me a strong,braved,intelligence and other.in jesus name i pray.amen

Badness

Yesterday night i having my badness feeling,in the begun i can't coping that types of feel,but lastly i solved.Actually i goes to the church listen the word of god,i very appreacited the people fetch me to fga,i was very angry the time pastor said about we must forgave my parent,he said must forgive everyone member on my home,i can't forgave them,i hated my parent,i hated them,all of them,why i can't grew up in the perfectly family,why their divorced during i still in small,i hated them,nobody can understood that feeling.,

Besides that,not only their divorces,they also used something to hitted me without any reason,i can't washed out the picture in my head,i was bedgrudge the people have a perfectly family,i very hated during that situation,why i so envy about that,why i must in single parent family,nobody know i have much an individual matter during i grew up....

i so painful on my heart,my heart was broken,i so uncomfortable when someone talking about their family,i don't know,i don't know,now was very confusing.....

Empty

no more thing i wanted write on my blog,i don't know why the feeling of last time in my heart was gone,started now i have many thing need to do such as glory the god and need to cover and also put effort on my studies,i don't care anymore,So i will no always write the blog,some of my problem i will keeping on my heart,i will trying my best to cope anything happen around me,sadness gone...no feeling,like my heart already blind,after that i need to write down the day of my birthday...continue



god bless everybody in the world,i love you,i love you much............